Embracing Life after a Near-Death Experience: Sunshine's Triumph over COVID-19

When my sister-in-law, Sunshine, faced the most challenging battle of her life against COVID-19, she found strength in natural healing remedies and a powerful support system. In our latest episode, we share her incredible journey, from her missionary background to fighting for her life in a hospital. Discover how her passion for adoption, apothecary, and the power of natural remedies played a pivotal role in her survival.

As Sunshine recounts her terrifying COVID-19 ordeal, we discuss the importance of having a support system and the complexities of modern pharmaceuticals. Learn how her knowledge of natural remedies, such as Lion's Mane mushrooms, helped her overcome pneumonia, and how pranayama breathing techniques aided her recovery. Listen as she shares her harrowing experiences in overcrowded hospitals, her fight against ARDS, and how visualization and support from loved ones kept her going.

Finally, join us as we explore the spiritual transformation Sunshine experienced after her near-death experience and the importance of finding purpose in life. Be inspired by her story of following intuition and listening to the Holy Spirit, as well as her parents' influence on her sense of purpose. Sunshine's journey serves as a powerful reminder to live fully and cherish every moment, and we're honored to share her story with you.

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Chapters

• 0:00 Healing Journey With Natural Remedies
• 8:25 COVID-19 and Pneumonia Hospital Experience
• 13:10 Health Crisis and Alternative Treatments
• 17:33 Hospitalization for Severe Physical Distress
• 22:48 Hope in Illness
• 30:37 Breath of Life
• 38:42 Finding Purpose and Living Fully

Transcript

Speaker 1: 0:31

Look who I have today such a Ferris, the sweetest sister-in-law. She's amazing. I'm so excited that she's here with me today. Again, it was just kind of a random thing It seems to be random things And I've known her since I think you were 16 years old.

Speaker 2: 0:50

Last time Was it 17?, 16 or 17. I think I was 17. Yeah, yeah.

Speaker 1: 0:55

Yeah, I can tell you that it's just really amazing. It's the first time I met her. When she came over It was just instant, like instant click with you. And when you left my house because you were dating my brother-in-law and Adam and I were already married, living in a house and you came over And after you left I looked at him and he goes, she's so cool, And I think I said, I think I just met my sister, Yeah, Yeah, And she's 17, 16, 17, whatever I knew then And I was like spiritually she is like a 40-year-old, Like spiritually she's so grown up and she's so in tune. So I want you to tell everyone a little bit about yourself and the history and how you grew up. Just real quick. Your parents were missionaries. You traveled around, Yeah, Yeah.

Speaker 2: 1:51

And maybe your mom and dad became missionaries when I think it was like two And their first ministry just like newly saved, like the whole thing their first ministry was being sent to some mountains in Mexico to be orphan parents of this beautiful little family of like 20-something orphans. And there was another couple that was there and then a couple that was sent with them, and it was just really awesome growing up in something like that, yeah, and I feel like it's always been in my heart to adopt because of that And we just yeah, just hasn't not the right time yet, you know like, but we've been talking about it for years, so it's like, maybe one of these days.

Speaker 1: 2:31

And you have four boys.

Speaker 2: 2:32

Yes, i do, and you're married, and how long have you been married? We just celebrated 20 years.

Speaker 1: 2:37

You did, yeah, congratulations. It's hard to keep up with everybody.

Speaker 2: 2:42

I know It's just. it's been a crazy cool ride for sure.

Speaker 1: 2:46

So I initially contacted you because of Lion's Mane mushrooms that you can get over the counter And I had never heard of this And Sunshine lives in Missouri now and she was down visiting And I had heard about Lion's Mane and she's always like what would you call yourself in the apothecary world?

Speaker 2: 3:07

I'm like forever studying. I'll never arrive, but I'm studying herbalism and natural path remedies, herbs, like all those things you can think of. So I call myself an apothecary because, you know, God brings people into my life and I'm like, hey, have you tried this. You know like and certifications take a really, really long time. So I'm looking to be an apprentice right now with a lady, but I'm just it's. you know it all happens in God's time. Oh, it does, and this has been your journey as long as. I've known you.

Speaker 1: 3:40

Like you've always been your healer and you seek from the earth to heal your body with different things. So I knew I was talking to the right person. you know about the mushrooms because I heard that it helps with Alzheimer's prevention And my dad passed of Alzheimer's very quickly at the end. but looking back, you know he had gotten it so young And you know it makes me worry and think about that as well.

Speaker 1: 4:08

So someone had told me about it. So then I went to Guru here and she's like yes, and it helps with this. And oh, did you know that it's an antidepressant? And I was like no, but I was wondering why I was so dang happy when I was cleaning the house, because I was, and I was just laughing, and so it's been probably a month And what I've learned is it really matters how you get it, where you get it, it's not psychedelic. I got mine at the little local compound pharmacy down the street.

Speaker 1: 4:42

And the benefits that I've noticed just in a few weeks, with the clarity, the brain fog, and so I reached out to Sunshine going tell me more. So we hooked up online while she was in Missouri And I had no idea the conversation that came out of that And, lo and behold, she was already coming here the following Friday. So I was like, please, we just come tell the story, because it is so moving and so touching.

Speaker 2: 5:13

I'm getting chills all over my body.

Speaker 1: 5:15

So I'm going to stop talking now and I'm going to let you talk.

Speaker 2: 5:20

Okay, all right, so I knew a lot about the mushrooms and things and herbs and stuff like that before all this, but now there's something to apply it to. So it's crazy how that all worked. So I already have the knowledge and then knowing how to heal myself later, yeah, So it's such a benefit that you already knew this.

Speaker 1: 5:44

So when this particular event happened, you knew what to do. right, Absolutely Yeah.

Speaker 2: 5:50

And I feel like some things that I knew, like even like I'll talk about the yoga too even the things that I knew helped me get me out of there. So it was 22. Yeah, yeah, because mom passed November of 21 and then it was just a few months later And I became really ill with pneumonia and I get pneumonia like every two years, it's a thing. So coming to find out there was like I have parasites in my lungs, so that's why. So I learned that later, but it went undiagnosed, because I went in for help and this is like a whole new healthcare system to me, right? So I don't have my people to like.

Speaker 2: 6:30

I'll be like hey, you know, dr Ramirez, like it's pneumonia again in Wimberley.

Speaker 1: 6:34

It's new people.

Speaker 2: 6:36

So I'm like I'm pretty sure it's this. You're like well, we're testing all this because it looks like a UTI, so they're taking all the other tests right.

Speaker 1: 6:43

So I go-.

Speaker 2: 6:43

Was this a holistic doctor or was it just No, no, no, it was a surgeon care, like you know it goes undiagnosed and I go home and they send me home with like a high prescribed Tylenol for my head, right, because my head was hurting pretty bad. Then, on top of that, it went undiagnosed and then I was somehow exposed to COVID-19, because then all of a sudden I can't breathe. Walking up the stairs And I was telling you the story about like the in-laws were over and everybody's hanging out and I stayed home because I was so I couldn't go anywhere.

Speaker 1: 7:15

I'm so tired So you've gone to the emergency room. they just kind of gave you They sent me home. Did they give you like an antibiotic or anything, or pretty much like here's a painkiller, you'll get over it. No antibiotic, nope.

Speaker 2: 7:24

Okay, and then they do-. they just sent me home and it was about three days later and that's when it starts hitting me even harder, and I had dry with me that day and I'm just like trying to keep this little baby happy, you know, and he's so chill, so he's like And at this point.

Speaker 1: 7:45

he was what two He yeah, he was He was little bitty, he was Okay, yeah, he had just turned three.

Speaker 2: 7:52

Yeah, he's running around, but with his autism he doesn't he's non-verbal, so he like points at things, you know. So it's like okay, he wants like toast or bread. So, like I did my could I give him the bread and I just laid on the couch and I was in and out like it was. so shocking to me is like how tired I was and I'd like go to sleep and I'd wake up and I'm like, oh my gosh, like I've been asleep, oh, my gosh, it's scary, and it's that mom sleep, you know, like you can hear what's happening, you know and like That's a good analogy.

Speaker 1: 8:17

The mom sleep. Yeah, the mom sleep.

Speaker 2: 8:19

The hum is on and on the TV and then you can hear like what's happening around you.

Speaker 1: 8:25

Yeah.

Speaker 2: 8:26

So he wanted something downstairs. So I go downstairs And in Missouri it's split level, so, like, all your upstairs is your main housing, oh, ok, so that's where we were The living room, the kitchen's up there, everything And then downstairs is all the bedrooms, like the boys' bedrooms, right? So I go down to get him whatever he needed And on my way back up I stop and I can't make it up the stairs anymore And I'm out of breath, like everything I'm just done And my body is hurting so bad.

Speaker 1: 8:54

And no oxygen. probably I have nothing.

Speaker 2: 8:56

Yes, there was no oxygen And I didn't know. Like I was just tired, mustered up, go to the couch, get to the phone. I called Josh and he's like we're on our way right now, like everything's done, so they get there. And later that night I was just so done. I'm like please take me to the hospital. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm just definitely not any better. You know, i feel so much worse. So he takes me to the emergency room of this one hospital And I wait almost eight hours in the waiting room And I'm like I sit by the bathroom because every time I cough I pee myself. Yeah, but the cough is so violent Like it's literally like even if I didn't have like I pee on myself. So I would like cough and go to the bathroom and then come back. And I sat there and the nurse came over and she swabbed me. She came back. They knew I was positive for pneumonia and COVID-19. And they made me wait and wait and wait And they kept letting other people come in.

Speaker 1: 9:49

Did they quarantine you? No, they left her there. Perfect, they left, i know They just left me there. And people were all like they didn't have it. I'm so tired.

Speaker 2: 9:59

Like I have to go to sleep. I told her I'm like I can't. We went in at 11 o'clock at night. I'm like I'm so tired Like I need to lay down. And they're like, well, we're doing the best we can. There's no pods available And they had just let like the sweet 80-year-old couple through And they're just like, yeah, we think we're positive And they're perfectly like way more OK than I was. You know what I'm saying? That's so sad, i'm dying over here literally. And you're like they took two pods And then I'm leaving And I go. And I actually watched them leave before I go. They took care of them and everything. And I tell the nurse I'm like I need to go lay down. So I put two chairs together. I'm like, please come get me when it's my turn. Seriously, i'm not OK And I have high pain tolerance. I'm really nice. You know what I mean. So it's one of these like I don't look like I need to be helped immediately.

Speaker 2: 10:54

So, that really was to my detriment. So I go sleep, sleep it off for a little bit, and then they come and get me And they put me in the pod And by this point the brain fog has taken over And I'm like I'm woozy, i can't even sit up without anything. They hook me up to a little oxygen lying in the bed, my head's pounding because the headache hasn't gone away from the first time I went in. The doctor finally comes in and he's standing way back in the corner like far, far away from me, and his hands are crossed and he's leaning up against the wall And of course we're all masked up. I can't see his mouth moving and I can't hear what he's saying. He's like mumbling And because of the brain fog I'm trying to rub my eye so I can hear it better.

Speaker 2: 11:39

I'm like remember you telling me that I can't even like what's happening here, So I'm like opening my eyes, Like that's somehow.

Speaker 2: 11:46

It makes me so frustrated, somehow like try to hear what he has to say. And I'm like squinting my eyes and looking at him And all I could think was number one where the hell is Josh? Why won't they let my husband be here with me? Because I need him here to help me understand what's happening. And I'm like I'm 41. I'm in great health, like yeah, with mom's death, like I got a little depressed and might have probably gained a little bit of weight at that point.

Speaker 1: 12:14

But I was being any, maybe have dropped with the stress a little bit, but there's no way.

Speaker 2: 12:19

Like I'm any of the things where this should be a problem for me.

Speaker 1: 12:24

You know what I mean.

Speaker 2: 12:26

So all I can hear him say was well, there's this thing we can try on you, but there hasn't been a lot of research on it, so I'm not sure it's something you even want to do. Like he's trying to talk me out of something He's like, or I can send you home with some antibiotics, and then I think he never even said, and then we can admit to you, or anything like that. All he said was give you some of this new stuff And then I don't know if you want to try it or not, kind of kind of whole thing right.

Speaker 1: 12:50

So I was like not a lot of really clear direction. There's nothing Yeah.

Speaker 2: 12:54

And so I'm like this isn't my brain fog, like I'm hearing him say these words, right, and then he says, or I can give you some antibiotics and oxygen machine, and then you can, we'll just send you home. And I was like I just want to go home, like I'm just thinking in my head like I can't be here anymore, not with these people. Like I just I don't feel right. You know how you know some places, like it's just some guy came in and gave me a little roller oxygen machine. They handed me some paperwork. I'm like, oh, here, you're good to go. And I'm like, coming in there, like I couldn't even like stand up without wanting to sit back down, because it was so heavy in my chest And I couldn't, i couldn't breathe long enough, so I put, they put the oxygen machine on me And I literally had to walk myself from that pod, which was just like a room kind of thing, all the way through and back and outside. And outside it was like negative two, like no, and I had to wait, like I had to wait for Josh. I'd call him at some point and be like, okay, i'm ready to go. And he had to get taken to the boys' school already. He had Jariah, so he had to make his way all the way back to me And it's a good 25-minute drive at least from our house.

Speaker 2: 14:02

They prescribed an oxygen machine, so the hospital brought one, or the text, came over and set it up and showed Josh how to use it. And then there's this long piece of paper and it kind of tells you not even full blast, we left it on, whatever it told us to leave it on, and then I literally just started dying over the next week and a half Because I wasn't taking anything to help it. Josh was pumping me full of supplements and he was on the phone with anybody he could possibly think of that knew enough to help him. So we have a friend here in Wembley. Her mom is a doctor in Florida And she had been bringing patients back from the dead nonstop, so she had a great success rate And he had been calling Leslie, my best friend, and trying to figure out And that's how he was hooking up.

Speaker 2: 14:56

And then I have my friend Cammy Remember Cammy? And she's an atropath herself And she's been through crazy stuff of her own health-wise. So it was so bad that I needed intervention And I needed a hell of a lot more oxygen than that machine was ever going to give me. You know, it was just so bad.

Speaker 1: 15:16

So Josh was giving you a medicine Like, because Like an over-accounter.

Speaker 2: 15:20

Yeah, over-the-counter. So like the horse medicine, dewormer or whatever.

Speaker 1: 15:27

Oh, i heard about that, did Joe.

Speaker 2: 15:29

Grogan, take that or something like that And like and that's just-, does it help? Did it help If you take it early on enough? Yeah, absolutely.

Speaker 1: 15:36

Wow, ok, did you take that?

Speaker 2: 15:38

I did Yeah.

Speaker 1: 15:39

And it helped.

Speaker 2: 15:40

It was helping me not die OK, because it was so bad Like I needed I would have needed. So whatever is in there, it would have needed to have been way more potent for it to kill. Was it strong enough, yeah, whatever. And it wouldn't have mattered like how much I would have taken.

Speaker 1: 15:55

It's just the fact that that's only meant for a certain stage of whatever is happening in your body, maybe right before, early on, but at this point, girl, you are going to save you.

Speaker 2: 16:08

So what happens is is like when you're taking things like that and then like the fembendental I think it's how you say it and that's for like goats, right, right. The whole idea behind that is that it stops the reproduction of your, of the cell growth of that thing in your body. And that's it. So, when they like, use it for a dewormer And like if you go back to the history of all these things being made, they're for people, they just give them to animals.

Speaker 2: 16:34

OK, OK And then the pharmacy wants to make money, so they separate the human version of those things, so that they'll make money. Interesting, oh my God. And you can watch Joe Rogan and he'll tell you all about the pharmacy and how it's the devil. because of how much money.

Speaker 1: 16:51

Yeah, yeah. And in Latin the word from a from a company We've talked about that Looked at that scripture Yep So it's, it's just one of those things where you're just like, oh, like, come on people.

Speaker 2: 17:03

So it makes it so hard when you want to like do it for yourself Like I, want to like kill my own family and stuff, but so I So you're dying.

Speaker 1: 17:11

This isn't working.

Speaker 2: 17:12

Every day, every day just getting close to the death and literally like he gets on the tele-doc. He gets a tele-doc on with me, finally, gets somebody to come through and and she looks at my face and I can see her reaction and she's like, oh my God, she goes, you need to get her to a hospital, like right now. And there was. Just I was so pale and I was so like my face was sinking in and it was like literally like oxygen was being sucked out of my body, cause you know, like when you're like de-oxygenated and your skin like starts to like look like you're like getting like old and all this stuff, so and I could see myself like in the reflection and I hadn't looked in the mirror cause I would literally get up out of bed, i'd go pee and then I come back and go to sleep for days because I wasn't eating anything.

Speaker 2: 18:01

He would make me like hydrogen, hydrogenated waters, you know that had like the stuff in there, like IV waters and things like that, and then I would drink what I could, but it's just was I was getting worse and worse and worse. I was like, okay, that's fine And I and the thing was, and he would have sent me to the hospital sooner, but I made him promise me not to take me back to the one because they sent me home and they didn't do anything.

Speaker 2: 18:23

And I don't want to be stuck there with people that don't know what they're doing And just being her was Or that you feel that just don't care, they don't, and they didn't care at all At all.

Speaker 2: 18:33

And so I was like, okay, like I need to go, i do need to go to the hospital. So he called an ambulance and then the guys get me in the car and I'm like where'd? they're like all right, where do you want to go? And I'm like, not Cox, anywhere, but Cox Hospital, please. You're like, no problem, mercy is literally and this was like the biggest God thing ever, because Mercy Hospital is a faith-based hospital and they pray over you, They, whatever you need. They're phenomenal people. I'm like, how did I not know to go here first? Right, the healthcare system there is just beyond, beyond. And so if you live in Missouri, go to Mercy Hospital, okay 100%.

Speaker 2: 19:18

And they take me to the hospital and as soon as they get me there, like I'm laying down and I hear the car, like you know, they're rolling me down as fast as I can through the emergency room And I'm watching people like they're so overflowing. There are so many people there. I see people like sitting just like up on the floor up against the walls just kind of waiting, and they quickly are rubbing it and they're like we got to get this one in right now. Like open up an ICU room, she's going to ICU, we're going to do all the scans and we're taking her straight to ICU. So like we don't know. And I can see the girl's sneakers next to me and I like she's like my guardian angel And she's I can see her like take me to my room and they flip me over because on your belly is like the best way to breathe when you're in distress like this. So they put me on my belly and like so if you're having anxiety attacks, anything like that, where you feel like it's just too much.

Speaker 1: 20:10

Is that why I?

Speaker 2: 20:11

like my weighted blankets, yes, so you want the pressures on your chest and it's because your whole body just flip it over and you lie on your belly and you just look from one side to the next So that the whole pressure can come onto the chest. So, with your head turned sideways, you know. So like I'm watching her shoes and she's like okay, honey, she's like I have no idea how you're even alive right now. She goes, but we're going to, we're going to get you in here as fast as we can. And so they're doing like X-ray while I'm laying down and they got, they're pumping me full of even more, like I'm holding an oxygen tank in my arm and they're like hold this, and they're sticking IVs in me, right, okay. Then they pull me into the cat scan room, like we're gonna do a cat scan. So they pull the oxygen machine out and I have to like lie there with my arms over my head, you know, on my belly still, but I'm holding the oxygen machine so that it's out of the scan And she's, i can feel like her hand's holding me and she's like you're doing so good, just breathe. And it's gonna be really still. You know, i got you After that, like they put me back in the room and then I see her toes and she's like tapping her toes and she's just kind of waiting.

Speaker 2: 21:23

And then somebody comes in and talks to her and they're like hey, oh, wow, you're still here, like I thought you were supposed to leave. She goes, i'm not leaving, she goes. I was obviously, but I'm not leaving until we get this one, this one fits, situated. She goes, this is so scary. She goes. I just I need to know, you know she's gonna make it through. I was like it was your angel, i was, it was amazing, it was amazing. So she eventually leaves and I get the new one and they take me up to my ICU room and they get me comfortable And I literally, and the thing is, it's like I got worse. I got worse over the next like two or three days because I couldn't even like if I was home, i knew I could get up and I could go to the bathroom and I'd come back And like by the time I was in the hospital, I couldn't even like eat. Like they'd bring me food and I needed help to get.

Speaker 2: 22:15

Like that I have the little bucket toilet like right by the bed And like I couldn't even move from there, like literally scoop my booty over like six inches that way, and then off onto the little tiny toilet there, like I couldn't even do that on my own And my phone was in my bag and nothing inside of me was like hey, like try to get up and go get it or ask somebody if they can hand it to you. Like for three days like I didn't have my any communication And then my one nurse came in and she's like we're so glad you're here and you're gonna get better. Your whole orientation wearing her name is Hope.

Speaker 1: 22:51

And that's somebody I know, mercy.

Speaker 2: 22:53

Hope, yeah, and just like any Hope, like I feel it was, it's not all sunshine and butterflies. You know like it's hard. Hope is hard sometimes, like you know that there's going to be something difficult, so difficult. But if you can just look beyond and that was like the epitome of what she was, because she'd come in and and she said She's, we're expecting you to be here for about two months Two months, yeah, she said, and it's gonna get really hard, she said, because we're the only people you're gonna see. And so start thinking like how you wanna get better and you wanna get home. Just start thinking about that And like, see yourself in it, like visualizing, visualizing, visualization.

Speaker 2: 23:37

Like visualize, and then you know, next time your husband can bring you things, like he can bring you pictures that your kids have drawn, Like they didn't know, like my kids are teenagers.

Speaker 1: 23:48

Nobody's gonna draw me anything.

Speaker 2: 23:50

But like cards and pictures of them. And then she's like and we can put them on the wall here And it can be like your wall, like just this whole, like realization of what is happening to me right now. And so, just like looking back, it was heartbreaking because I didn't even know that I needed to fight. You know, like my body was so ready to be asleep that it didn't know how to fight. Yeah, so it was. I was getting so much anxiety from my lungs being full. So by the time they had done the cats, get an action and everything they had found that my lungs were over 98% flooded And by that point they had diagnosed me with ARDS, which is acute respiratory distress syndrome, and 60 something percent of people that get it die. Like it's not, you can come back from it, obviously, but with them being flooded that much, that was very very scary.

Speaker 2: 24:50

Very concerning. That's why they were so like we need to hurry up and get her, Try to get all this out of her and like figure out enough for her to fight it and everything. So when I finally got in the hospital, that's what was like. So it was my body's like trying to fight And that's what was so hard and it hurt so much. So I would get these anxiety attacks and like I wrote about it, about how it just feels, like it literally felt like an elephant would just walk across my chest and then sit on it And like I felt like this weight And then I, you know, like you ever have those dreams when you just wake up and you're like like you're drowning.

Speaker 1: 25:28

Oh my God, you just have to like take that breath. Yeah, because you're drowning. Yes, yes.

Speaker 2: 25:34

And it's that over and over again And I'm just like, like you have that sensation and I couldn't even take a breath like that, Like it was literally like in the night start coughing, So my breaths were so incredibly shallow, like just right here And that was it, And so I'm like I can't call, like can you give me something? so I'm not coughing because it's hurting me so bad. And so they would put me on a thing and it kind of like maybe a little tired. The anxiety was horrible and they had me on some anxiety, something for anxiety, which is it helped, but it didn't help me sleep.

Speaker 2: 26:11

So it was kind of like in this lucid state, like the whole time, just kind of like very chill, but I wanted to sleep. I literally I can't think that things happening to my body, I just feel like I'm, i just want to go to sleep forever. On the third morning I was sleeping and most of the time when I would wake up I would wake up with an anxiety attack like 100%, like freaking out right. But on this morning I felt this hot I call it a warm hug, okay On my heart. Sure, it just wrapped itself around me from the inside all the way out to the outside of my body.

Speaker 1: 26:50

And I felt yes, 100%.

Speaker 2: 26:52

And I knew that, like if I could describe how it it felt yellow and gold, Like I felt like it was light, like an energy of warm gold colors.

Speaker 2: 27:09

Like I saw them when I felt them and it happened. So it was like a heart hug from the inside out and it just really tight on the inside of me. And then it wrapped its arms around me other way, on the outside, and the whole time, for the before that whole time, while I was dying, the wall in front of me had a clock and it had a crucifix And I would just see the clock and the crucifix and the clock and the crucifix And I never, like, knew what day it was or what time of day it was.

Speaker 2: 27:39

You, know I'd have to like, look outside to the window to see, like through the morning, through the clock at night, like I didn't even know, i had no idea of time And this beautiful crucifix just staring right back at me. And so when I opened my eyes that morning, with this heart, hug all.

Speaker 2: 27:56

I'm looking at is this gorgeous crucifix that I stole and it's in my room now. I let him know I'm good And I call the chaplain. I'm like, while I'm packing my things up, i'm taking the crucifix off of this wall, i'm taking it out with me because it saved my life, and she's like please tell me the story later, which I haven't yet, but I need to You send her this, i know, and she's like it's okay.

Speaker 2: 28:19

It's okay, You know, we love that. Good for you. I'm like just put it on my bill, you know what I mean. And she said no, no, like it's for you guys. I'm like awesome, like I just want to let you know so the next person has theirs. So make sure you replace the one that I'm taking, because somebody else needs to have theirs here, right, yeah, so it's this beautiful vision of hope, of like time that doesn't even exist, because it doesn't, and then salvation and hope and new life and the whole thing. So it was just incredible.

Speaker 2: 28:50

So after that point I turned a huge corner and I started getting better right And I can sit up in my bed and have an appetite. I can actually get myself to the toilet right there. And it was so strange because I'd sit there and like they would forget to close the curtain, so like there's a window to my door and I'm sitting on the toilet and I feel like the little kitty cat like eating litter box, like don't look at me, don't look at me like that. Well, they're walking by and I'm just. It was so embarrassing And my goal at that point was I'm going to go to the toilet by myself there, that toilet.

Speaker 2: 29:34

But for now I had these, i had this oxygen tubes in my nose and it was like an accordion that ran from my nose all the way up around my ear where I held it, and then the band just kind of was like and it wasn't, it was humidity and oxygen together.

Speaker 2: 29:51

So they did humidity and oxygen so that, because you can't do pure oxygen when you're, keep it wet, yeah, yeah. So when the respiratory therapist would come in and look at it, or the respiratory technician, he'd pull the paper out and look at all my numbers and like my breathing habits, right, and he says, okay, he's like, well, you turned the corner, you're doing really good. He's like just, he's like we're gonna maybe in a few days we'll be able to like move you to pure oxygen, but we need to give it some more time. So in my head I'm thinking, oh, my gosh, i need to be able to breathe better so that they can give me oxygen, so that I can live and then get to the bathroom. And I'm like I just want to get to the bathroom, like baby steps.

Speaker 2: 30:34

My goal is to go to the bathroom. Sure, turn the goals. Yes, little bit of it, thank you. He leaves, and then they all leave, and it dawns on me pranayama breathing. This is the breathing that we teach in our bighram sequences. And as I'm going, through the dialogue in my head, because you are also a yoga instructor.

Speaker 2: 30:51

Yes, so knowing the dialogue and teaching it, it literally what happens is? is it literally, when you do it properly all the way through, it filters out all the gunk in the bottom of the lungs and it pushes it out? Yeah, so if I can breathe like I teach people to breathe I can get out of here. I go to the bathroom like I'm like I can't do this, i'm so angry So I sit up in my bed and it literally like I sit up and I let my legs just hang off the side and just so I can get my spine straight, and so you interlace your fingers and put them underneath your chin and then you take a deep inhale in and you Cold out.

Speaker 2: 31:30

Let's do it All right Straight spine, straight spine And interlace all your fingers.

Speaker 2: 31:35

And then touch your knuckles to your chin and then look forward So you can see yourself in the camera. So move forward, right. And then sacrobellion. So it's nice and tight, like you're at the beach, yes, and you're pulling in it, and then kind of like, because we're sitting, it's okay, but kind of like, squeeze your booty so that your tailbone is doing this and you're like, okay, so squeeze, suck it in and then look straight at yourself in the mirror.

Speaker 2: 31:57

Now when you inhale, you're going to close the back of your throat like a snore and you're inhaling through your nose, so close your mouth through. Your mouth is soft, and then we're going to inhale for six seconds. So inhale, hold it Now exhale. So when you're inhaling and exhaling, your belly is pulling in. So with the compression of the belly in, it pushes on the lungs. So the lungs are pushing out more than they need to And like the full motion would be inhaling with your elbows all the way up, up, up, up just a little while here, and then hold it, exhale, head goes back And then pull your elbows to the front of you and then keep looking back And that's your inhale, exhale. So how many times you do that? So, on a regular basis. You're supposed to be doing it like in a class we do five and then we do 10. And they're supposed to be at least six seconds of an inhale and at the most, six seconds, at least six seconds of an exhale.

Speaker 1: 33:09

This just came to me. Yes, tell me, i'm reading this. The last podcast that I did was with Carla in April, and then April texted her and I something, and it has to do exactly with what you just said. Okay, she sends this. God answered in the name he gave. Is recorded in the original Hebrew is Y-H-W-H.

Speaker 2: 33:35

Yahweh.

Speaker 1: 33:36

But that's the way it's recorded. Over the centuries humans have arbitrarily added an A and an E in there to get Yahweh, presumably because we have a preference for vowels. There was a moment in time when Moses had the courage to ask God what his name is. Perhaps this is why Yahweh was considered an unspeakable name, because quite literally, it is not supposed to be spoken but breathed. But scholars and rabbis have noted that the letters Y-H-W-H represent breathing sounds or aspirated consonants. When pronounced without intervening vowels, it actually sounds like breathing Y-H-N-H-W-H-X-Hell.

Speaker 2: 34:28

Yahweh.

Speaker 1: 34:29

Y-H-W-H, our God has given us his name as our very breath of life, A constant reminder for us that it is only because of him that we live. He is our life sustaining power, And when you said that, I was just like that's what that is. You were breathing, You had the spiritual knowing and you had this practice and you were being healed by that.

Speaker 2: 34:58

So in the Sanskrit the word pranayama literally translates to breath of life, And we know that. They know how sacred that is And that is creator.

Speaker 2: 35:13

That's creator connection. It blew my mind that and then, knowing that and visualizing like literally the breath of life in me while I'm trying to come back, so like my inhales were, i could maybe get two seconds in worth And then I'd start to exhale and I'd be coughing up a storm. So it started off super small but I was able to like push and push and I knew like it's okay. Also, you know a little bit TMI, the whole coughing and peeing all over myself.

Speaker 2: 35:45

Yeah, i literally like had them bring me extra towels and I would like wrap my body in towels because I'd be sitting there and I cough and I'd like probably pee on myself, you know. And so during the breathing, like I'm like wrapped up in towels, like a big baby diaper, and I'm like breathing and like allowing myself to cough up this junk, and then more inhales, more exhales and pushing, and the more I knew it, if I can push harder, cough more, it's okay, i can get out of here faster. I knew it. And, sure enough, he came back to see me two days later. He came back to see me a day after that, the day after I started, and he goes back to the paperwork and he pulls it out and he looks at me and he says, oh my gosh. He goes, you are doing so good. He said I'm gonna. I think I'm gonna put, i can put you on oxygen. Now He says you want to try some oxygen? I was like, yes, i do. I was like.

Speaker 2: 36:41

I want it because I need to go to the bathroom by myself. I need to just dive laughing because it's such an ordeal to like even get up. Number one, you know. and then number two it would be like having to like disconnect and reconnect my own oxygen in order to like take myself to the bathroom, to connect to like a little take, you know. So, like the first couple of times like I had they had to help me do it anyways, you know, And once I learned how they did it, I did it on my own and I didn't tell anybody. I was like, yeah, I'm with the bathroom myself.

Speaker 2: 37:09

It was fantastic just knowing how to be able to do that and get myself out of there.

Speaker 1: 37:15

I love that. That's amazing, yeah. So how long were you in the?

Speaker 2: 37:18

hospital. So, yeah, they were after I started that, and then, my miracle, the whole thing. I was only in there for nine days.

Speaker 1: 37:26

Wow, that's it, yeah. And they. They thought it was going to be two months. They thought it was going to be two months, yeah.

Speaker 2: 37:31

I had a crazy appetite, which is fantastic because I hadn't eaten in like two and a half weeks, yeah, and I was like staying up later just because I was like I was head set for so long. So I'm like, okay, staying later. And Josh brought me an iPad and so I could watch movies. So I finally got to my bag like four days later, like I'm in my bag and I get to call him and face time him for the first time and, oh, it was just the sweetest thing.

Speaker 1: 37:56

You know, get to see my baby and yeah.

Speaker 2: 37:59

Yeah, so it was just amazing, i'm so sorry you went through all that.

Speaker 1: 38:04

I'm just glad that you're okay. In my life, in your life, in so many people's lives that we know in our family, it just feels like it's been such a huge attack on everyone and instead of saying, well, why didn't you do this or why didn't you do that? You know, I've been there and I'm just trying to survive or keep my kid alive, you know, and it has nothing to do with anybody else You but that so. I get that. It's just so thankful you're okay.

Speaker 2: 38:41

It's my story and I wanna tell it. I want people to know like, dude, i love you and you didn't hear from me because this, this and this you know what I mean. Like I was dead, like you know, like I'm not, i don't ghost people, you know. No, you don't, You know I just literally was becoming a ghost, like that's it. You know, Oh my gosh Something stupid like that.

Speaker 1: 39:00

Yeah, but so from there, how has it changed?

Speaker 2: 39:04

your life. So I really feel like on a spiritual level, that I'm in this whole new version of myself, 100% Like I didn't pass to the other side and like have like the near death but I got pretty darn close And then coming back the way that I did, i feel like this whole new like purpose there's purpose. There is And there was purpose before you know. I always felt like I was meant for something you know And we all should feel that way.

Speaker 1: 39:33

Yeah, that's why we're here. I just have.

Speaker 2: 39:34

I had like amazing parents that instilled that in me like all the time. So I knew, you know when I had that confidence. But after this it's just, it's so much more.

Speaker 1: 39:45

It's lighter, it's freer. Yeah, you feel it more it flows, probably through you, more. There's not a lot of stops there. And then when you realize, when you come to you know a trauma, near death experience like that, or losing someone, that you gotta live every day like it's your last, because you just don't know, and even if you do, end up average living to what 85, 90,?

Speaker 1: 40:13

you know you don't have a lot of time left. So why are we holding back the gifts that we could be sharing with other people, Like a word of healing? you know You could say something to someone and the Holy Spirit's totally using you and flowing it through your mouth And it feels so easy and it's a gift for them and it could change them for the rest of their life. You know, Absolutely Yeah, And it's not our job or who. It's the Holy Spirit's job to touch that person. It's just are we blocking ourselves from the Holy Spirit and from communication to be able to share, Because we're not close enough, we don't have a close enough relationship, we don't know what his voice sounds like, we don't know what our communication is And then, when we do get bits of information or intuition or gut feels, we question it, We question it, we deny it, we blow it off.

Speaker 1: 41:07

But I wanna encourage anyone out there that if you have that, you hear it, you feel it, just go with it once and see what happens, Because it'll blow your socks off really.

Speaker 2: 41:19

We should all be living in this idea that we're so much more than this physical body and being able to speak beyond that for other people that feels stuck and don't know that there's more to life than just what you can feel and see And I feel like that's liberating, so that by itself and being able to share with people.